
After 5 months of coming home from a day of teaching, sitting on the stools in the kitchen complaining about students who come to class 20 minutes late, have a need to kiss everyone in the class on the cheek to say hello (including me who is trying to teach), then preceding to stand in front of the class and ask me about their grade on the test, not realizing that class started 20 minutes ago and being surprised when I say wait till the of class---- I´m sad that its ending.
I met students in the library on Friday to take the final exam who needed extra time to study and wow, I realized how much I love this. Running around the library with kids yelling ¨miss marina miss marina¨ in Spanish accents... well, its just great. This week I have two days of final oral exams (nothing like asking the same basic questions to 100 students in 2 days!) and then I need to be moved out of the house in 1 week from today when I am flying to Arica in northern Chile and will then take a bus to Peru... wow!... this all happened fast and although I can see the mistakes I made as a teacher, I also can see that I affected people and was affected by people, and nothing could make me happier than seeing this. I was more than just a teacher, I was someone in my student´s lives, and more than the English I taught them I also got to be a positive representation of the US, and most importantly to be their friend.
Some recent experts from my journal:
--- Last Thursdays class with Intermediate--- OH MY GOD WAS THAT CLASS AMAZING! I had them write about a topic that was important to them for homework and then for the oral test I switched it up and had everyone in the room (normally oral tests are one-on-one) and we went around and they just talked about their topic and oh my.... seeing them express themselves about deep things, talking in English... Esteban talking from his heart about music, Pamela about friends, Paulina about traveling.
---- Last Tuesday´s last class with 672 Ecotourismo Basico!... It really was so, so special. At the end of the test they just like didn´t leave... after all their bitching and complaining to me about how late class is on Tuesday and they want me to change the time... they recognized it was our last class and they didn´t run out after they finished their tests. We took pictures and I told them about how this class was really fun for me and it was funny when they finally did leave... I stood right next to the door and it was like a line to give me a hug as each of them said goodbye and then walked out. My favorite was Julio. He gave me the regular cheek kiss, then a real real hug, and then another kiss. I loved that feeling, being able to feel his affection being expressed behind the cheek kiss, being his way to say thank you. We have been bonded since the day he was the only one in class and he kept interupting my teaching to tell me about his girlfriend and ask me if I liked Chile, etc.
--- Talked to mom today about how I´m sad to leave and say goodbye to my kids and she said that I need to see this all in the big picture-- either I can think of this as an experience thats gonna end and be over or else That its a part of what is next and who I am now and really its all connected. And this just felt so right- this will never end in some sense because it will always be a part of me.
Yesterday us Americans threw a 7th de Julio (4th of July) celebration in the park and invited all our students. Although only one of my students came, there was possibly a total of 100 people in the park, BBQing and playing soccer and baseball. It was really fun... and I don´t know if so many Chileans have ever celebrated the dia de independcia in the US before!